Rhythmacy

[Image Source: livestrong.com] My inner battle with coffee is ongoing.  I'll start with what pulls me towards this beverage and then share my reasons for resisting it. I love the aroma of coffee beans.  I will walk down that aisle in the grocery store just to get a whiff of freshly ground beans.  Sometimes I catch the toasty, roasted scent and other times, it's the oily, creaminess that turns me on. The most obvious pull towards coffee is its addictive nature.  I know that I'm addicted because once I get into a rhythm of drinking it daily, it's very difficult to stop and I experience the withdrawal headaches within 24 hours of 'quitting'.  There's also an intense mental obsession associated with quitting coffee, but I experience this torment when breaking away from any form of attachment, whether physical or emotional. I am also a fan of morning ritual and there have been many, many days where the only thing that motivated me to get out of bed wa

Today my heart is at peace, soft & smushy.  Yesterday, in the bursting energy and light of the full moon, I was feeling the increasing anxiety of the inevitable drop as the emotional roller coaster gradually makes its way to the top. I met a beautiful soul 3 months ago and we dove full force into an intimate relationship starting with daily email check-ins while I was sick in bed with the flu and then progressing to 1-12 hour encounters at his place.  I felt an intense emotional and physical connection with him.  I also felt frustration when I wasn't getting explicit verbal assurance that he felt the same.  He seemed very open the first couple of encounters, almost a hunger for intimacy.  I experienced a high from our time together, which flowed and felt easy.  I wanted more and I was willing to communicate how excited and happy I was about us and him. Intuitively I sensed that he was just as aware of our awesome connection, after all, he was in the dance with me.  Ye